We Can’t Expect Everyone To Act The Way We Do…

We can’t expect everyone to act the way we do… 

We can’t expect everyone to support! We can’t expect everyone to be understand! We can’t expect everyone to do the common sense things that YOU would do! 

This is not even a rant, or a dig at anybody, it’s merely just me thinking out loud after reflecting over my productive weekends! 

Selling out another show last weekend with the help of my loved ones was incredible – was so overwhelmed, but a little disappointment did touch my heart when I looked around the room and realised a few people I EXPECTED to be there – were NOT!

This wasn’t a rave or a link up – it was a cause close to my heart that I really wanted to share with my loved ones. I had to shake off that feeling ASAP and understand that – “We cannot expect people to act the way we do”. 

To be honest I was just grateful for the people that did come, even those I never expected! God bless you all! 
This journey has been GREAT! I can’t thank God enough, and yes on the outside I do look all happy and smiley, but there are days that I sit and ponder and then realise “my life will actually never ever be the same again!” 

I’m not complaining! No way! I’m too excited to complain, it’s more the fact that I will need to adjust very quickly and I’m hoping people around me will adjust too without taking my actions to heart. 

Sometimes I want to be alone, but sometimes I really do wish I had a close friend next to me who understands and is going through this whirlwind journey with me that I can speak too at any time of the day! 

Over the weekend I attended two AMAZING events, all focusing on entrepreneurship. One focused on black businesses, the other focused on mothers who were still grinding and hustling, both inspired me in their own unique way! 

The Mummy event really touched me as I met, and have now kept in contact with some AMAZING mums and mums to be! I’ve been sceptical about making new friends, but I realised maybe this is what I need. To be around more people that understand this journey and support you through the emotional ride. 

Don’t get me wrong I have the best friends ever – but these ladies understood my frustrations and stopped making me feel like I’m going mad over the pettiest things. 

We can’t expect everyone to have the same mindset as us, sometimes our common sense is not theirs – so simply brush it off and move on! Adapt to your situation! 

I’ve adapted by coming out of my comfort zone to learn and meet new people (in particularly mums and mums to be) – their lives mirror mine. This makes me feel better about myself knowing that I have ladies I can turn too for advice or simply just to meet up and chat with specially now that I have more time on my hands. 

Make new friends, these could be your new team of supporters! They could be your go too, and most importantly these people can help you when you didn’t even realise you needed help! 

This post was hella random but I just wanted to write down my thoughts and just reiterate that’s it okay to not be okay sometimes – but having a good support system around you is so important! 

I hope everyone has a blessed and productive week! 🙏🏾

Ciao x 


Wake Up Call! 

My son is so active! Sometimes he kicks me so hard it wakes me up, but I can never ever be angry with him, if anything it’s a sigh of relief and happiness to know my son is healthy and active as I’m eagerly wait for his arrival! 

I sit there sometimes and talk to him, “I’m actually going to be your mummy before the end of the year”. I want to be the best mother I can be! I’ve been so fortunate and God blessed me with the most amazing parents who got me everything I ever wanted and supported me in everything I ever wanted to do! From dance classes, to swimming lessons to athletic competitions – my parents were ALWAYS THERE! They got me my first car and have helped me in every single thing in my life!

I look back and realise how I could have taken them for granted in areas in my life which is sad, and as I prepare for motherhood I realise more and more how much love you have for your child! 

I never ever want my son to lack! I want him to have the best life like I did and for me to get there it means I need to step up!

For a while I’ve been confused about my next steps in life, my initial goal and dream is slowly becoming a chore. I feared if I gave up I would be letting people down so I continued – but I had a wake up call this morning and told myself “Stop letting fear deter you from your future”. 

I need to stop limiting myself! I need to think out of the box and step out of my comfort zone! I actually do have talents that can be beneficial to others, I can actually work and get paid good money for using my talents so why am I not doing it? 

Sounds harsh, but in life sometimes you need to be selfish – I’ve taken a risk for far too long because the repercussions were only going to be on me, but now I need to think about my new family! 

My partner is my biggest supporter and I thank him for believing in me and standing by my side through all my emotions and indecisiveness – but I’m so happy I’m about to take a leap of faith for our family which I honestly feel like God has called me to do!

I’ve prayed, I’ve mediated, I’ve ranted but I know now it’s time to leave fear behind and work on this new venture! 

Can’t wait to tell you all about what I’m working on! I will announce this after my charity event happening next week! 

For all my UK readers, would love for you to come down to #RememberingYou – an event to raise awareness of Cancer and to celebrate life AND my birthday! 

A night full of music, dance and goodies from our amazing sponsors! 

You can purchase tickets here: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/rememberingyou-one-year-on-tickets-37726430770?ref=eios&aff=eios

For anybody feeling anxious, confused or lost with their journey, I would say take time to sit back and evaluate life and what you want from it. It’s actually okay to start again, failing is usually what motivates us to succeed! Most importantly keep God at the forefront of EVERYTHING! He will never ever let you down! 

Hope this can help someone today! 

Ciao x 

Sleepless Nights, Random Thoughts

It’s finally come to that last hurdle of this beautiful journey! 
The stage I’ve been looking forward to, but at the same time dreading. Let me explain…

Majority of the year I’ve been carrying this beautiful human inside of me, and it gets more and more exciting as the weeks start getting closer. I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET YOU! I wonder who you will look like, will you have my hair? I bet you’re going to be a footballer or maybe a boxer because the way you kick and punch me, mate you’re bringing home a gold medal one day! He’s definitely going to be some sort of athlete though because mummy and daddy are! 

With the last hurdle – comes the insomnia, but at the same time the tiredness, the lack of breath, the back aches, the swollen feet, the heartburn. Not really that much fun, but all so worth it! 

The past week has been crazy, it’s like this baby doesn’t want me to sleep, when I want to sleep is when the full kicks and punches come to play. Why now please? I ask myself every time! So we lie there together, I massage you through my belly and sometimes we chat just to keep you calm so mummy can sleep. 

My mates with babies keep saying; “Make sure you get as much sleep as you can because once the baby comes you won’t get any”! With that I look at them and say “Thanks” (in my head I’m like, I know this already stop reminding me!!)

But how do I sleep when no position is comfortable? Or when I feel like the meal I ate 3hours ago is still sitting in my throat? How about the fact that I feel like baby is trying to show off his skills like he’s at a Manchester United football trial? 

Well simple answer is I don’t! But what I do do is embrace it, because soon I’m not going to have a bump to play with, or get the comments like “you look so good pregnant, you haven’t even put on weight” *flicks braids* 

My bump has been my best friend! I love knowing I’m carrying a human being who’s soon going to be my child and will call me mummy! 

I do get scared sometimes though, I want to be able to provide for you and never ever lack! I want to support you in ALL you do! I just want you to have the best life possible. 

There’s no time to waste now, no more favours, just straight dedication to make sure I’m ready for your arrival. I remind myself everytime, GODS GOT ME! 

As I lie here on my babymoon in France (my last holiday before baby comes), I thank God for this beautiful blessing! I honestly CANNOT wait to meet you! The love I have for you is already undescribable, YOU ARE BLESSED! 

Roll on the last hurdle! I’m ready for you! 

Thanks for reading such another random post lol. Till next time… 

Ciao x 

You Know My Name… Not My Story! 

You know my name… not my story! 

Some may know me as Gabrielle, or maybe Gabbie/Gabby/Gaby, perhaps Gabz or even in some cases Ga (for the family members lol), but just because you know my name doesn’t mean you know my life story. 

You may claim to know my life, but believe me YOU DON’T! I only share my stories with a close few, the others that claim to know me it’s all based on hear say. 

One thing I learnt today is that no matter what you do in life, people will ALWAYS talk about you (good and bad)! It’s sad to know that wherever you go your past will always creep up on you, but one positive thing I have taken out of that is if people are talking, it means you are doing something right! 

Easier said than done, but sometimes we need these people to keep us motivated, we need people to not believe in us to keep us grinding and proving everybody wrong! 

I know a lot of people didn’t think I would amount to anything after leaving school (probably still don’t), especially some annoying teachers :/ But, although I’ve not made it (one day I will), I definitely know I’ve worked hard enough for my name to be recognised within my field of work. 

I’ve got so much more to do to build my company to the stage I’ve always dreamed, but I know with persistence and drive I WILL get there! 

As I grow older I learn more, I’ve changed so much from that curious 15 year old, I’m a woman now, soon to be someone’s mother and a wife eventually, so why should things that happened over ten years reflect who I’ve moulded myself into today?! 

For anybody hiding from any demons from your past, don’t hide, face them head on! Own it! This is YOU! But never ever let it hinder your progress as you grow or make you feel less worthy because of mistakes you made in the past. 

Most importantly NEVER REGRET! – Allow the past to help you move forward and use this as a learning curve! 

On that note, I will end this blog post here. 

“Don’t let your past define your future self” 

Ciao x 

The journey so far… 

Hello beautiful people! Hope you are all well? 

I thought I would be blogging more but I’ve been so so busy, it’s so hard to actually find the time to stop and take a minute to talk to you all. I’m still working so much – this pregnancy has not stopped me! Apologies. 

It’s been an amazing few months, I feel so blessed and super excited and I honestly just want to thank God for my mum who is my rock! The most amazing mother I could ever ask for! Always giving me advice, reassuring me and spoiling my baby boy!! My partner who deals with my very few moods swings and just makes sure those swollen feet and back aches are dealt with. He never complains and is forever concerned about my wellbeing and our baby. To my beautiful girls who are my everything! The best friends anyone could ever ask for (Myra, Chiz, Mercy & Michelle) – they deal with my emotional self and know how to pick me up! 

Now everybody’s pregnancy journey is different, some love it, some loathe it, but nobody’s is EVER the same! 

So far I’ve loved every single minute of it, seeing how God works, feeling my little man kick me/punch me is the most surreal feeling ever and it makes me so grateful and super excited! 

The only thing that I’ve suffered with is the restless nights, now I’m usually a stomach sleeper but this has evidently become a myth now! Also you are not meant to lie on your back because it can effect the blood flow to baby. Which leaves only two other options – my right or left side :/ I really don’t like sleeping on my sides I find it so uncomfortable so during the night I find myself going from side to side to try and get comfortable but it never works. Most times I wake up more tired than I was when I fell asleep, but I remind myself that it’s all part of the beautiful journey!

A few weeks ago – bump is bigger now 🙊

Another thing I’m dealing with is really bad back pain!! Now if you know me, you will know I’ve always had back pains but now I’m feeling it more and more which can be a huge pain! I try and relieve this but using my yoga ball to exercise, by going for a walk or just getting the hubs to give me a well deserved massage 🙊 

I’ve recently signed up to an Aquanatal class which I will be sharing with you guys soon – And I will continue going gym just on a lighter scale! I need to snap back!!! 

Of recent the swollen feet and ankles have started to creep in as baby gets bigger too – nothing a bit of elevation can’t help – also a massage from the hubs lol. 

I never complain though!! Why am I complaining?! This journey is BEAUTIFUL! I can’t express it anymore and as I enter the final hurdle soon I find it harder to contain my excitement. 

It can get tough sometimes though, I’m in entertainment industry so I’m used to going out a lot but now I get tired more easily so a lot is invites I need to turn down and also it doesn’t look very cool a pregnant lady out in a club, people will just stare and tell me to take my ass home. 

I’m missing out on a few holidays with the girls too which is a shame but at the end of the day the present I’m about to receive is worth soooooo much more! 

I pray my little prince is like his daddy! A God-fearing, caring, loving, hard working, respectful, talented individual! He will never lack! He will be happy and light up the room wherever he goes! 

I love you so much my little Prince! Can’t wait to meet you! 

Thank you God for bringing me this far too, I was sceptical about writing this as I didn’t want to giveaway too much of my personal life, but I felt like this morning God wanted me to share this with you, maybe somebody out there needed this. 

I pray the last hurdle of my journey goes smoothly, I feel good, I still look good if I may say so myself, I’ve not put on any significant weight as I’m still eating healthy. My cravings are grapes – definetly cannot put on weight constantly eating grapes can I? 

Watch our vlog when we find out we are having a boy! https://youtu.be/ajsOQ2eBf5Q

It’s Not Just About Me Anymore! 

I’ve noticed I think ALOT in the shower… does anyone else do that? Lol 
I woke up so tired today after a long weekend full of work and outings with family and friends, that when my alarm went off I just wanted to stay in bed and rest but I realised I’ve actually got to work! 
It’s not just about me anymore, I’ve got to do this for my new family. 
Motherhood is not a joke, everyday I realise I’m going to have a huge responsibility to deal with very soon and I just want to be the best I want to be! 

Currently I actually work 7 days a week! I run my own business and now I’m working two jobs because I realised my hustle has got to step up! 

I can’t lie it’s really not easy, most times I just want to rest, as you may know I’m more tired than I used to be, but the hustle must continue! There’s money I need to make and there’s another human coming into my life who I now need to look after which means he comes first! 
What allowed me to stay motivated this morning was knowing that I’m going to inspire young females on how to be their own boss! Talk to them about my journey and why I love my job! And this has all been from the hard work I’ve been putting in since I graduated from uni, work that people are finally starting to see, which makes me realise that these sleepless nights, the long days, the early starts are actually ALL worth it! 

One thing I want you to all do is never give up! Keep on going, because one day you are going to realise is that it’s all going to be worth it. 

God will never put you in situations that you feel you can’t handle, he just prepares you for the amazing things that will reap from it. 

Have a productive week my loves!

“You are about to become everything they feared you would be” – Sprinkle Of Jesus 

Nothing is going to stop me! 

Omgosh I did it! I actually did it! 

Sunday 2nd July, the sun was beating down, little bit of wind but it was a very very nice day! Anxious but determined I prepared to run the 5K race I promised myself I would do since last year in memory of Nisi.

When I told myself I would it, my reason was because it was going to be a huge challenge for me. For those that know me I’m a sprinter, I like running 100/200m but anything longer than that, yeah count me out! So agreeing to do 5K was definetly something out of my comfort zone, but I was determined to keep going and not give up because that’s what Nisi always used to do! 

When I crossed the start line I put my headphones in and starting jogging my way round the long route alongside thousands of other determined women raising money for Cancer and fighting against it! 

Along the route I wanted to give up, I was so tired, my foot was hurting but then I imagined Nisi at the finish line smiling and cheering me on so I kept going, kept going! 

Each 1K I would see a sign telling me how long I had to go and each time I knew I was getting closer to the end so I kept pushing through. 

My last 500m approached and on the right hand side I saw my loved ones cheering me on, pushing me to finish. Seeing all those familiar faces made me smile and forgot about all the pain and tiredness I was experiencing. 

As I reached the last 50m I spirited my way to the end and I was sooooo happy! I actually could not believe I had done it! Not only that but I’m pregnant too! What a double whammy! 

It was only one of the best days of my life and I’m not even exaggerating. I’m so happy I’m still able to keep fit while carrying an extra load and I’m continuing with my life and enjoying every single step of the way.

All the hard work of training paid off! I feel and look good if I may say so myself and that’s honestly thanks to the best boyfriend ever! He continues to push me through  and support me in every single thing that I do. Thank you! 

I aimed to raise £500 but thanks to my loved ones I exceeded that limit and now I pray that money will be beneficial and can perhaps save someone’s life out there who is suffering from the horrible illness.

Cancer is not a joke and it takes so many lives, people being diagnosed are getting younger and younger and it saddens me! 

This month is Nisis birthday, she would be 27 but sadly she won’t be celebrating with us. I just hope everyday she is smiling down on me, and I really hope she’s proud of me too. 

Writing this I have tears in my eyes because I find it hard to take in that my princess is no longer here, but I will make sure whatever I do in this life I never ever forget her and I will let her name live on! 

Nothing is going to stop me! And I honestly feel like Nisi’s soul helps me to push through.

I hope you were proud of me my princess! It was all for you! Thank you for helping me get through it. 

Love you forever x