The End Seems So Far…

Woke up at 5am this morning by the feeling of my bladder about to erupt from all the water I’ve been drinking to make sure I’m fully hydrated in this sweltering heat! 

How annoying! I really dislike these random wake ups when I’m having the sweetest sleep and the most amazing dreams. But hey, I suppose it’s all part of this new journey I’m embarking on. 

Usually I am able to fall right back to sleep, well after a few twist and turns and yawns and after checking my phone quickly. But this morning was different. I laid there, fan blowing on me as I tried to comprehend the heat, and I just could NOT get back to sleep! 

Fears started to erupt. I felt the devil was playing games with me. So immediately I turned to my bible app and started reading the two bible plans that I usually start my day with. 

I’ve noticed these plans majority of the time relate to something I’m going through, and today’s message spoke to me in a strange way. 

‘Use the gift God has given you’. 

I know the gift God has given me, I’ve been using this for the past 5/6 years, and although I feel I’ve made some sort of progress, the end still seems so far away! 

What am I not doing right? I lay there and calculate that there is 6 months left of the year, 6 months left of this journey before my whole life changes! Something needs to give? 

I know what I’m good at, and I know something will make way for me to capitalise on my gift from God so I can be successful and make a change! 

It’s normal to worry, but when you let the worry and fear consume you, it shows you are doubting God! As hard as it seems to me right now, I’m still so grateful. Grateful that I am able to wake up everyday and thank God for my life, grateful I have a roof over my head, a car to drive, loving parents, supporting friends, the best partner anybody could EVER wish for! So I don’t complain. Instead I talk to God and I say: 

“Although the end seems so far, I don’t know how, I don’t know when, but I know something is going to happen. And when it does my testimony will be GREAT! So powerful that it will inspire others to keep going and never give up!”

The days are actually going so fast, although to me ironically it feels like forever because I’m counting down, so I need to step up, stay faithed up and continue on this beautiful journey God has blessed me with! 

Another random post, writing helps me to release and reflect and I just hope someone else is able to relate and hopefully this can also inspire! 

To end this, just to remind you I’m running (well perhaps jogging) 5K in memory of my beautiful Nisi who sadly lost her life to cancer last year! It’s her birthday next month, and my run takes place on July 2nd! All donations would be truly appreciated! 

Please do donate what you can by clicking this link:

Ciao x 

R.I.P Princess! I miss you everyday ❤️

Don’t Ever Loose Hope! 

Shame on me for not posting in so long! But thank you for coming back to my page to read my blog! I love you guys! 

Sometimes life really slaps you in the face and you need to take a step back to look at it and re evaluate a few things. That’s what I needed to do. 

Well after some time away, I’m back, back to remind you all of some life lessons, back to tell you to never give up, and back to share some things that I have learnt on my journey. 

Do you ever have this plan for your life? You want to achieve this by this age, you want to be married by that age, perhaps have a child a couple years later? Then retire ten years after that? Well yeah, life doesn’t always go according to plan and you can’t be mad! Why? Because you are NOT God, God has his own plan for you. He may throw things in your face that you never expected, it may throw you off course, but one thing you need to do is remain faithful! 

It can be so hard when you feel lost in the transition of change, you may start to worry, of recent that’s been something I’ve been struggling with. Then I need to remind myself that God would never put me in a situation I cannot handle! 

Sometimes he throws us off course because he doesn’t think we are ready, he wants to prepare us for the next hurdle in life. 

“You need to look past the temporary pain and look instead at the long-term benefit in your life. Trust God!”

This year I had sooo many things planned out, I had targets to reach, places I wanted to visit then BOOM, a huge change  deterred me from all of that. At first I was so upset and angry, then after a while it sunk it and I realised what a HUGE blessing God had decided to put in my life. 

I’m still striving, I’m still building, I’m still trying my very best to be the best that I can be! If anything it’s made me want to work even HARDER! 

Literally nothing is stopping me! I’m super excited for this journey and soon I will be able to take you all on my journey! 

The remainder of the year is due to be sooooo much fun and I’m bound to go through a whirlwind of emotions as I get there. But one thing I’ve noticed is that when you have a good support system and faith in God nothing is impossible! 

I thank God for my mum, my best friend, my biggest supporter and motivator, everything from here on I do for her! She’s my Why! 

Why do I need to make it? – For my mum, so she will never have to work a day in her life, so she can retire and live stress free because she deserves all the happiness in the world!

Thanks for reading my lovelies, thanks for not giving up on me. I will definitely be back! So stay tuned. 

Ciao x

Love and Live your Life!